It’s been a
little over a year since I started a new chapter in my life by moving to the
city of Ratzeburg in northern Germany,
part-time.
I started a job, working full-time for two weeks, going back south to be with
my family, (now only my husband, the son has since moved to Amsterdam to study
at the unversity there).
It started
off great, I felt a lot of enthusiasm and thought everything would be good.
Unfortunately, the job situation turned out rather more difficult than I had expected
and is still not quite settled. (But as of today, it looks as if it will be
more settled starting March 1.) Add to that the various crises of last year in
the family realm that I don’t want to talk about here (anymore), and one could
say that I would have been prone to fall sick due to exhaustion after
overburdening. However, one, if not the major reason why I moved to Ratzeburg,
of all places, is the fact that it is situated in a lake region.

Family history
and childhood memories had long ago anchored a deep yearning inside my soul
that I wanted to live in a lake area, with easy access to water. It might well
have been a Bavarian lake, but those somehow were always out of reach (and
realty prices there are extremely high) and my husband did not want to apply
for a position there. So when we had agreed that we would want to move to
Ratzeburg for his retirement, a combination of circumstances led to my decision
that I would go ahead and start putting down roots.
It was
clear to me that I wanted to go swimming in the lake a lot, and I also knew
that I wanted to swim (or rather: dip, in the winter) all year round. But I had
heard that it is the ‘proper’ way to start in the summer and just keep going,
never stopping when the water gets colder, to make adjusting easier. After I had
moved in January, I spent the first two weeks getting acclimatized by wading in
the water for a few moments, up to my knees, or a bit deeper, depending on the
outside temperature and my clothing equipment. At that point I thought I would
start going in for good in March, assuming the water would get slightly warmer
then. In February, when I returned for my second round of work, I went to the
lake on the evening when I arrived and waded – and when I went home, I thought
“what the …, I can start immersing now.” And I did the next day.

Yes, it did
feel cold. Especially cold around the neck, I thought. Yes, at first it did
take a few breathing exercises when doing my swim strokes to avoid
hyperventilating. And yes, one does feel numb when coming out of the water, and
it takes a while, sometimes even a rather long while, to get fully warm again.
But walking home takes care of that part, at least a bit, a kettle of tea upon
returning home helps to warm up from inside, and the feeling of elation and
completeness that occurs every single time is just unbelievable. Indescribable.
Unsurpassable. Inexplicable. After three times, when I still had minor doubts
whether I was being insane, I was completely hooked.

Going for a
swim every single day that I am in Ratzeburg has grounded me securely, given me
a structure and, I think, has kept me sane throughout the last year. And
healthy – I have not had a single cold during the last year. So I want to sing
a little praise for my lake. Very few people understand what I am doing, but I
have found a good friend who does the same, and sometimes we go together. But
most people also don’t understand that I came up with the idea of living
temporarily apart from my husband and commuting back and forth with a now six-hour
drive. I just must embrace my otherness - perhaps I would even qualify for
being an ‘audacious woman’ in the meaning of Anne Boyd who writes a substack with
that title, although I didn’t pack up quite as thoroughly as she did?
I have recently joined the rowing club, world famous in rowing circles, where my father used to be a member and train when he was young (and where my parents met many years ago).
What
remains to be seen is how this move and change of life circumstances can
positively affect my creativity, which it hasn’t done so far. But now, with a
new start ahead of me, I hope it will eventually develop. And I will keep going
for a swim in the lake every day that I am here.